Can you believe it’s been over six months since we went into quarantine?
I remember thinking I was dealing pretty well. And for the most part, I was. I was working, teaching Socacize virtually 3 times a week, keeping in touch with friends and family, I wasn’t losing my mind, and was generally keeping the COVID away.
I was just so tired. The things that I used to love including Socacize felt exhausting. I was so tired of being in front of screens and was losing momentum for teaching. I lost my drive for blogging, cleaning, and started spending more money online. Not to mention the blatant racism and social unrest we have been witnessing throughout the US. It’s hard for any of us to feel motivated or energized when we are witnessing such atrocities occurring over, and over, and over, again. And of course, I’m not even someone who identifies in the BIPOC spectrum, so I can only speak of this fatigue from a place of privilege, with no real understanding of what the BIPOC community are going through.
When things opened up again I realized how much momentum I had lost. Getting to see friends and family face to face again was so refreshing. Being able to teach Socacize in a room with other people brought back so much energy for me. Having friends over gave me a push to get my house looking and feeling more presentable. Being able to actually work outside of my home, go on long drives, and be in the community again felt like a gift. It really wasn’t until this all came together towards the end of the summer that I realized I wasn’t doing as well as I had thought. Even the prospect of going to the beach or going on a small road trip felt exciting again.
My intuition turned back on. I got some energy back. I wasn’t shopping online as much. I started bullet journaling again, and actually started accomplishing tasks regularly. I even developed a new plan for a pivot for this very business (more to come on that). It felt pretty darn good, even if it still feels like I’m at a fraction of the level of functioning I was before. But that’s okay too. It’s good to see that we can live without some things, and we can do other things differently than we’ve always done them. I don’t mind sticking around the house as much, but I also don’t feel as bothered by being around people and getting in my social fix. It’s been an interesting time of learning and growing, unlearning, reflecting, and reconsidering. I’m looking forward to fall, as it always feels like more of a new beginning for me than any other time of year. Cheers to new beginnings, and hopefully a better ending on the last quarter of 2020.
And so it is.
Stay tuned for updates on the Rose Quartz Rising pivot! Specifically, if you’re looking for some assistance sorting through a specific challenge, but don’t want to be sitting on a call once a week for several weeks to do it, contact me to see how we can work together. Because together, we rise.